Jing Hui

New year, new term, new start, new life

2012-01-12T11:55:00.000-08:00

Inilah tahun baru. This is a new year.

Its a new start, new term in school, New prespective, new life, new goals.

Most likely, my last year in school. As such, I want to get the most out of my degree, so I am exploring other courses that I have never thought of taking.
Wine science. E-business. E-marketing.
I should say, all of these are GOOD courses as its really integrative and reality related, and no longer anything textbook says(most of it dont even want you to buy the textbook - saves me lots of $$$).

I spoke to one of my prof, WOW, no offence sir, he isnt the best teacher around, but he is a good person to speak to. He is a consultant for many many many airlines, airports, former chairman for transport development group, ATAT.U pull out his resume, HAK SEI YEN.
I am really liking my major, though maybe ppl from other "majority" major would be like "psh... oh u in tlog major". But U know what, I believe! and that makes it worthwhile to pursuit my own interest rather than following norms.

Will work hard for better results. BRING IT ON 2012, I challenge you !!
WE ALL JIA YOU JIA YOU !!

Notes on 2011,
A crappy lousy horrible start to the year with troubles. Naive, stupid me.. why so easily fooled, taken advantage, used, manipulated, again and again, over and over. Maybe i m too courteous and too nice to people i care about. So bad that my academic was flunked. I am not going back it the same thing. DONT MESS WITH ME B**CH. After summer, then, classes started. Everythink okay liao, found my own directions, my own goals and working toward it. Its just like that.

2011, nothing great, nothing significant, but ya, you did threw me off tangent. But d i am gonna combat you like crazy if it happens again.

just looking forward for 2012.
Our best year to come !!
GOOD LUCK, friends and family.

对不起

2011-12-28T14:46:00.000-08:00

对不起.
我对不起你.

原来还有别人更关心,更爱你...
而我根本没真的把你当一回事. 对我而言,你的存在真的有没有意义,我也不知道.
我太不自量了.

是我伤害了你,对不起.
我让你失去了一切,
我让你痛苦,受伤害.

来世,你讨厌我, 没关系, 应该得.

只希望在你可以离开以后,要更加幸福,安心,可以有更好的仁爱.
对不起 k.o.

我委屈了你.

Recent development

2011-10-07T01:37:00.000-07:00

Recently,

Feels much more enjoyable learning in class.
Feels much more freedom gained.
Feels much more quiet than before.
Feels much more stuttering speaking English.
Feels much more easily strained and hungry.
Feels much more time passed too quickly at most times.
Feels much more unworthy to find resolution, waste of time.

Feels Autumn Red leafs are pretty, but Spring flowers are more vibrant.
Feels solitude for being alone.
Feels thoughts and thinking about world.
Feels the lonely, cold lonely chilly nights.
Feels intimidated at times.
Feels detached.

Still feel unable to find the center of gravity.
Still feel unable to learn things coming against me
Still feel like having high hopes, but dissapointed.

Feels like I not learn to love what I do at best. Not that I'd like to feel like this, feels like I want to flee out of this spectrum. Too much grey clouds to dampen a bright future.

This place, is not my world.

I am fleeing to capture my awaiting opportunity ahead of me.

Good luck

2011-06-15T19:35:00.001-07:00

Everytime you fall down, you stood up again and fight your hardship.
Now, its time do it again, prove to yourself once again you can manage it.
Because there is every reason in the world to believe that you'll do well. Good luck !

again the problem ??

2011-05-25T20:39:00.000-07:00

right now, studying for econ midterm tomorrow at 9pm in the library. have been burried in econ for the whole day now... ...

then i suddenly remembered. I seriously wanna ask: why again??! what is your unlogical problem ??
bcuz i got a serious problem understanding with this peculiar unexplainable nightmare. Got woken up early morning to this nightmare for the 3rd time cuz I 'saw' her AGAIN (just in dream) Hmm... havent add up the number of actually seeing this person in real life, then it will be quite a dozen times !!! what does this mean leh ?! its like every time i have this nightmare, the situation will get worse and it's becoming more unfortunate. why you want to hunt me down ? have i done anything wrong to you that I don't deserve a good sleep ? nightmare can lead to insomnia.

But, nevermind this, my worse nightmare ever, ECON 355 - international trade. WHY WHY WHY ?!
cuz its TRADE TRADE TRADE TRADE TRADE TRADE. really regret taking this over summer. most unliked econ course so far. AIYOYOYO aaaaa

GOOD LUCK !!!! must endure ..... summer is still long. ENDURE PAIN cuz sweetness is coming soon :) cant wait till i go home / spend time with friends & family !!! 1 month !!!

something's wrong, somethings's right

2011-05-13T11:25:00.001-07:00

What is the problem with you ? !

Joy of recognizing true happiness.

2011-05-06T01:57:00.000-07:00

Living the enjoyable summer week with shows, visiting friends, staying in spend quality time, watch shows, picking flowers. Good mother nature, thank you for your sunshine :)
Went to sing K with friends, we were able to make the best time. Little more expensive than expected, but nevermind the money. It was worth it, at least i think.

In life, you can earn and save alot of money, but if money cannot buy REAL happiness that leaps out of your heart, its a waste of time and waste of quality life we took for granted. Like it says, "Happiness is only REAL when SHARED". I agree with it.

I am so glad,thankful. I am so happy with my life right now.
Thank you all friends, family and love ones.

大学二年

2011-04-14T01:55:00.000-07:00

在温哥华读了两年的大学。其实生活过的满满足。主要是快乐为本能。

我觉得大学让我们累计生活上的点点滴滴，帮助我们成长进步。你是否有别的看法呢？

读了两年，本人认为课堂内学的道理很多时候真正生活是派不上场，道理完全是废得，一点都没有用。
我想若人生活着只为了文凭；这一长纸，那真的浪费掉我们宝贵的青春，非常的可惜。还有读书需要很多很多钱钱钱！！负担好大- 钱，我没有，默默承认我真的抗不起！！哎。

我要感激很多身边的重要亲人和朋友，他们的存在对我意义重大，很感谢认识他们。没有你们，我得大学人生还真的会无聊到~ 吐血的那种，缺乏色彩光芒。

-马来西亚帮朋友，每一次跟这你们一起玩，吃饭，做功课，闲聊八卦正经-全部都很有趣，很单纯的快乐。你们就海相有种特殊的光环围绕这你们。和你们在一起永远都让我觉得特别的温馨，有家乡温暖的光环，文化风情完全不缺乏人情味！真的很开心跟你们在同校念书。
-Indos, 每次都是吃吃吃，玩玩玩- mahjong,ps3, jangka，在fraser hall开party :) 差不多每个都是engineers, but hanging out with Indos are are always cool because each of them have a different distinct outgoing personality that makes the group so dynamic. Not to forget, helpful as well (help with getting girls). I still remember i first met Nelvin and then who knows, i know every Indo after that. Strange, yet funny. Also thank them alot for making life interesting at all time.
- Maggie : the very very first person I spoke to in UBC !! so glad to have your help and support all the time !! I just really like ur shark :) ur room is always productive when i am around :) I m so happy with u !
- High school (Rachel & Kevin): Glad to know you both came here with me. without Rachel the baker, no Cake Pops, cheese cake, comforts talks and gossips about ISS. Without Kevin in commerce, i would just hate group work ALOT more (good team and good leader).
- Singaporeans/HKers/Sauderers: through expansion of friendships. Start to get to know more n more ppl from the faculty, the circle of friends smaller and then we 'll be a one big circle. This impresses me all the time, but I wonder what it is like when life presses on.

2nd year was TOUGH, no kidding. So many profs, so many (10)commerce courses to go through.

I would say, I like Stats prof -Berkoitwotz the most as he is the most intuitive and stimulating prof who tells COLD COLD jokes that cheers students up. Also AZIZ, INDIAN accounting prof who tells bad COLD jokes and tries to rap Enimen, every 9am. VERY FUNNY.

ECON& Econ environment(the extension of externalities) both are OK but the assignment was painful. cuz u TYPE econ graphs using WORD doc cuz "it was too much hassle to read MESSy hand writting...BS! wat happens when u have to mark hand written midterm n finals ??? " - actually this is to cut down cost for lower TA hours cuz econ department got budget cut.
decision making- Brian Graham,arrogant, and chooses ppl based on BRIGHT colours clothings) No comment.
MIS, marketing - Fairly good course since relevant and very business wise courses. Recommend to take :) BUT beware of GROUPWORK !!!! GROUP work used to be the best assigment in high school, but not anymore (esp. random assign). comment "... ..." or T_T depending on members. Ask any 2nd year sauders, everyone will have their own bitter-sweet story on groupwork.
HR - fairly boring n like most friends say its USELESS but the prof makes lecture good cuz he tells us about experiences in workforce. HR should be made as elective course rather required !

taking a break from my next exam. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE, have a wonderful summer !!! I know i will :) going back home!!!!

有什么

2011-01-14T17:55:00.000-08:00

没什么可以说的。现在是“适应”期。

朋友啊，原谅我可能会不开心而对人冷漠。

某朋友，有点难受心会很烦。你比我容易，因为很多事都不会给你回忆；根你相反。

还有。

如果我不喜欢你很烂的教学方法，我给脸色，你又怎样？？别怪我。你的饭碗是我们学生给的钱，看学生不爽应该比看老板的脸色好很多吧？对不对？是不是？ So you dont have to walk by me and KACAU me ok ? I dont like to see your face. Hodoh bodoh.

2011-01-08T00:21:00.000-08:00

Holding on to faith.
Maybe. Just maybe, it will work.
but I am filled with doubts. Can patience endure the journey? waiting for a promise and least sense of achievement?
I can't stop wondering. But all i can do is pray hard and keep holding onto faith.
Let FATE decides on its way.

HOPE is useless. Never trust it. It hurts and tarnishes dreams.

Closure 2010

2010-12-24T23:54:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2011.

Its now time to reorganize life and reestablish goal.

Sigh....most undesired incident happened at the most crucial time. Its a bit useless to regret,since the fact is already proven. Over or lack of confident kills. Hard work is proven NOT to show, any extra effort won't count. Still unable to accept the fact, hanging off the cliff at the moment. So lost....
Need another kick in the head again.

Maybe its going to be allright, maybe not.

Happy holiday. Everyone have fun. Can't wait till 2011.

Just wanna wash away 2010 down the drain please. wahh

Have a great time !!

小开心。

2010-12-17T13:32:00.000-08:00

考完试了！很兴奋啊！　放假了，可以放下一切摆平所有东西。
最近也不知道要做什么了。总觉得有很多时间，要开始狂追戏、吃‘喝、睡睡睡睡。决不要碰书！！

2010 已在尾端，这一年过的极度的快。去年还在想来加拿大读书，离家依依不舍；现在还是对家依依不舍，却踏入了第二阶段，从小孩少年磨练成大人。生活真的有很大的转变。

回家。
现在每当看到人拿着行李箱，总是会心里默默的羡慕、嫉妒他们。看着父母为孩子收拾，乘车（车厢塞爆满），哇，就是看他们开心，觉得特别的温馨。

家就是福。
家是心灵的避风港。
有家就是幸福。
我会好好的珍惜爱我家人，因为他们是我人生永远最重要的人。

有人问，为什么不喜欢这里？想不出理由来推论。
是没有理由不喜欢，但就不能喜欢，
。心灵空虚。没有一个安全感、脚踏实地的起点‘没有未来的方向感。很难稳定。
真正的家是不会让人有这种感觉的。哎，心疼啊。

好的，我替每个人去玩回家的人要玩的开开心心，也要记得安全！为大家都开心！！

1st movie kick off:
"The Notebook" - A Novel by Nicolas Sparks made into a movie. Its remarkably touching as always. I've watched bits n pieces of it before, but dont really remember much of the plot. But, the scary thing is the plot is moving with current situation, way too closely related !!

The movie is excellent quality.Hard movie to find these days. Girls, Guys, Its a MUST WATCH movie in your life, if you have the time !! Strongly recommend it.

"The pains of true love reside at the heart or our existence."

懒得写了，还有很多东西埋藏在心里的。

50 days till 2011

2010-11-13T14:49:00.000-08:00

I just cant get myself focus to do Econ or Accounting at the moment. Just cannot focus for no apparent reason!!! Procrastination through blogging !

Recently,
I cooked Curry Chicken, and steamed Hainanese Chicken Rice in rice Cooker with a dedicated helper. All the food turned out to be very delicious. I like to cook when I have the time and when i feel relaxed. Spent almost all the whole afternoon cooking.

Later at night, had dinner with the Indonesians at Fraser, good to see and catch up with friends since everyone is so busy this term. Nevertheless, it was a good dinner. We had Tofu with minced meat, Tau-ke(bean sprout) with egg, curry, soup with siew mai, mushroom, choi sum. I am also learning how to play Mahjong! It was fun, its a logic game.

Friday, ended class before 12pm, so I went out to grab Sushi with Siew Ying ! Thanks for the food and tour around your house! Also the bf advices & chatting :) Thank you.

My mama owned me again and again. She literally Nagged me through Facebook. All i have to say I love her. She's the wonder women of my life :) I miss her and my family so much. I want to go Cambodia with my family... too bad, it ok, it will be allright.

Also, hasn't been doing anything much other than spending time with dear V. Time seem to pass by so quickly because I am enjoying the time we spent together. There's no need to wow me or impress me because being yourself and that is all I need. Simplicity is always the best. Like wise, Thank YOU so much for effortless support and sucking up my pissed off hungry mood.

It only 2 weeks left till the end of my 2nd Year Term 1 ends, approx 50 days till 2011. Its too quick. I havent even do anything for my New Year Resolution !! No Way !! Time flies by.

Special mention about my accounting class, I m really liking my prof. He is a very nice man, although i still yet to go to his office hour, I think the advice sheet he gave out (seem useless to most people) is very precious and motivational tome. I really like one of the quote "You've earned your right to be proud of your effort regardless of how your grade" It makes me feel extremely positive and make me work harder ! Thank you prof.Aziz.

I am appreciating everything that I have right now, the grades I have, the wonderful friends and boyfriend I have, the semi-depressing life Canada has. I fall down before,I've managed to pull myself up before, so there's no excuse for me not making it Right? so, I am going to make changes to my Own life. I choose my own destiny. My best days are ahead of me. My other thought that encourages me :
Be THANKFUL and EARNEST of what've you got,
珍惜你自己有的一切，
because you've gained more than what you can lose.
因为你为自己赢了尊严，自己该拥有的。永远不会输。加油！

i still Love listening to w-inds after 8 years !!! Inspirational and wonderful!
1- its a boyband that been around with me since i grow up with. A sense of familiarity, comfort, soothing, relaxing music they produce. Their music is still worth listening although many of the fans lost interest in them since the autotune and Kpop stormed the asian music.
2- lead singer's voice - very comforting, good voice, good looking, and exceptional voice.
3- I like the guy Ryohei- he is my dream guy !! beautiful smiles :)!!!
4- A fact that makes me different from others. I was exposed to Jpop, when others watched HK dramas, and Taiwanese dramas, but I had serious fandome over Jpop groups. People who knows me well understand my fetish for Japanese boys (ehm hints by JenJen)

now gotta go screw ECON ! Its accumulative for FINALS !!! its the whole textbook to study !! Waaahh.
Also Accounting and MIS !

its not just it

2010-11-01T22:58:00.000-07:00

wow, Commerce courses makes me feel utterly STUPID. Especially Comm 290, Quantitative Decision Making.

Maybe I shouldn't be in Commerce. I cant even do well on any exams !! GAAAHH, its so stupid. I want to get out of this place already !! AAAHHH ~~~~ I dont like it here, i dont dont dont dont like it.

Its intimidating. I feel stupid i dont know how to do math, dont know how to think, asks stupid questions,cant do well on exams... ...... Feel stupid for asking.

繁忙

2010-10-21T21:54:00.000-07:00

忙.总在最忙的时候最多问题了就是逃不掉~ 好久没有写中文了,真的不习惯.

现在还过的很好,虽然很多人说我好像不开心,
是因为我要担心很多事情和成绩.

之前一直很累,很不爽, 但是我现在觉得还不错.凡事都要看开, be positive and optimistic ahh :)

econ课是我最喜欢的一科，但偏偏不能让我好好的开心上课。因为关系到一件很碍眼，碍手碍脚的事，算是我来温哥华最扯，最扯，最倒霉，扯到爆的时候。
就算我可能前世欠你人情也不需要put me into this awkward position.被炸到~~！I admit我倒霉。要玩我，捉弄我也好，不许要这样的惩罚我吧。我是会被玩死的。 Its a prolong torture,death penalty.
Thanks econ, just made my life so much more interesting to work with.

所以我还是先用这段时间就好好做回本人，过的开开心心，顺顺利利就好。不要为了小事而烦恼不值得我们的时间。No more putting up with everything :)

Coming up: econ midterm, accounting midterm, MIS report. I hope i will be freeier after this week ! Cant wait for the pumpkin weekend. Will study my ass off. No high expectation but will try my best. 　

要好好加油了！跟自己比赛。

我会在彩虹边界等待美好的未来。

我想吃Dim Sum, Ayam percik !

Urgh... long turkey weekend

2010-10-11T21:12:00.000-07:00

Sorry lah.

Long weekend for Thanksgiving. Its been long !! Woohoo. too bad i m sick right now. Sort of dizzy and tired and everything. Not good.

I m just so sorry to my dears. I am always such a bad person. 90% of myself says I am. I dont deserve the goodness of this world. I have just made everyone around me feel sick, worrying about me, thinking about me when its really not needed. Its so stupid... but if i dont let it out, i m just gonna suffocate myself.....

aiyaaaa. too much things going on at the same time. last week was hell week !! too much streess and pressure.

But so glad some very very deep deep underground buried feelings are finally lifted out. it makes it alot easier for now, or else its gonna be like the BP oilspill if its kept longer and longer. hahaha. ok.
I m very happy to get this over with, i hope you got to know more about me because it made me realize how high my self defensive wall is built up over the years.

Will do another post soon. sleeping time !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA, I LOVE YOU. I am sorry I disappointed you and made you unhappy on your birthday. I am very very sorry. I wish you can nag at me right now telling me how 不乖 i am, how immature i am. I miss you alot and still i m sorry.

HAPPY THANKS,GIVING- TO SLEEP

Don't Remind Me

2010-09-21T09:09:00.000-07:00

This blog is about my feelings atm that is sufficiently momentarily and temporary.

Peanut butter here tastes bad. I like chunky ones, but the ones here arent as good as the american brand that we've got at home. Having breakfast is always a hassle to me. Cooking is also a hassle cuz I am just cooking for myself or less. Buy alot of food but end up in the bin. WTH is this? when did i become such a ignorant fool?

there are alot of thoughts just emerges and submerges in my head at the same time. This is the real annoying part. I thought things are settled when its "OUT" of the mind. But NO, its not really gone. AIYAAAA wat to do ?

I still think we are still growing up. we are still incapable to bare responsibilty, barely experienced, barely know whats ahead of us. I dont like it, and dont want it, dont even like to try to force myself to like it which in the end, makes me miserable for the timebeing. Wat da heck right ?
Its been really tiring lately. School wise and emotional wise. Its always up and down, round and round. So annoyed, annoyed and more annoyed when things cant turn out the way we want to. I know its great when things work out, but then, total dislike when what i do gives out the wrong impression, or what i try to do just like to be considerate and caring and/ or get denied with some irrational reasons.

This sounds just sooo emo to da max. So what if its like this. Do i always have to show that i m okay by sucking up to all these sH*T? I want to have my life too you know, whoever that is reading this. I am not here to suck up someone and some other's matter and be responsible for your feelings, take care of all this stupid things...and SMILE to pretend I M OK AT FAKING MYSELF. URGH.... i wanna throw myself out of the window right now.

I am just Letting it out.

examine this picture here. See the women's eyes, all you see is frustration and sadness, but there's nowhere for her to escape. She's gotta keep rowing the boat across the river.

I know, Life is hard, but you gotta move on.
.

NO mood. P.S. This post refers to my temporary feelings ONLY.

End of Summer 2010

2010-09-06T11:14:00.000-07:00

夏日的尾端

Its RAINING right now in Vancouver. Not too good as we'll have to bear with it for next 6 months. But we have to keep it moving. Summer's ending. NOOOOOOOO !

Just moved into my new dorm, 12th floor, facing the mountains and ocean. Got a best best view out of all Vancouver. I see boats, waves, blue ocean, trees, the ski resort at the tip of moutain, best of all, other ppl changing and plane crashing into mountains. Hahaha, just kidding.
Got 5 other roomates, they seems pretty nice, I might be wrong with one of them, who knows.

Writting this blog allows me to procrasinate for unpacking. I honestly didnt know i have SOO MUCH "JUNK", i have way too much clothes. I wouldnt want to be a girl when it comes to packing and unpacking. Counting out the amount of me actually packing/unpacking and moving from place to place, its concluded that I have been doing this for about 7 times now in the time span of 6 years. Its pretty amazing, and bad as well. So excuse my room for being so messy right now.

感恩词：
There is this somebody out there that I really want to thank alot deep down from my heart. There's a ton of apologise to be done, for flipping his life upside down all the time, and yes, this person does deserve alot more which I will have to make up for it. I am so grateful to have this special person, to always listen to me and making me always smile with happiness,and sometimes misery. Hahaha. THANK YOU man. I am always wishing the best for you. Take good care and do not worry. I'll try my best I promise, I promised not to dissapoint you and I know my responsibility to take care the rest. HEARTS from the far away.

Ahh, schools starting. Gotta focus focus focus. Goal setting time !

ok, dont feel like saying anything else. So, thanks for reading.

Go back to study, get ready for the FALL. If bored, some pics below from summer - singapore, malaysia, vancouver-victoria.

Jing Hui 谢竞慧上

Malaysia Beaches is THE BEST

2010-06-16T18:39:00.000-07:00

Last week, went to Kuantan, Kuala Terrenganu, and Pulau Redang.

At Pulau Redang:
Besides the accomodation at Redang Bay (which i reckon NEVER EVER go)... It's a beautiful place to visit.

Great beaches, great sea, great fishes, great corals, great beach disco (at each resort) <3 nothing, absolutely NOTHING beats the beach life there

Everyday, snorkel every 9.30am and 2.30pm and continue snorkel or sun tan late noon. Disco at night. U'll be amazed by the friendly staff i.e. scuba divers / snorkerers / guides / ppl who worked there are damn good at dancing. I mean they literally can move their butts and shake it off... way better than city boys :p then, BLUE SAND, AND not to miss out, FIFA WORLD CUP.

We did some daring stuff: Jumping off the boat into the sea (which prob amazed lots of the tourist and guides, which makes us noticeable), met couple of cool people and became friends with them which made it a total cool experience.

Btw, Girls, all the 'local' have really really good body. Super buffed up, muscular, fine rediated over brown skin that can resist the sun so well, wahh, if u ever see them walk up on a street in city, u'll definately say they are hot ! HOT man HOT ! hahaha

Kuantan:
Meet up with Sue Ann, my middle school buddy, she's so awesome !! I love spending time with her and the night staying overnight at her place :p Swimming at Royal Club of Pahang, eating keropok at Taman Gelora, sleeping over ... and catching up with her !! I love her lots !!

And stayed with a family friend, the Tan family. All we have done is laying on the floor forever and ever cuz the floor was nice. And EAT. Sleep, jalan jalan pergi makan.

Kuala Terrenganu :
Beautiful beaches beautiful beautiful !!! so many places to go.

Conclusion:
Really demotivates me to go back to Vancouver. Nothing is better than Malaysia ! I love it here so so so much !! AHH, really dont want to go back !!

well. next blog i'll make a complete update

”你是我最重要的人“

2010-05-27T02:11:00.000-07:00

好漫长。。。暑假的时间真的过的好漫长

开始看‘就想賴著妳’，很不错啊，很多东西看，戏又不太拖。觉得很浪费时间，我是可以做工的，没有要去找，很懒。
不行，不能懒了，绝对不行了！！！

这段时间，
仔细想了很多，很多。
接受了他，对我很好，太好，人品很好。。。也发现自己许多的短处，却完完全全不了解自己为什么可以给人快乐。
虽然在别人眼中，好像很好个性，没有问题，那种被人看见的完美，真的摸样，
但要配的起别人的眼光，不止烦，也累。

为什么，做好人永远是让人受伤或被受伤害的？我还是不明白。

没经验，没知识，我可不像别的女生。我比不起她们-身材，样貌，语言，幽默，气质。这些我通通都没有。
人总会从经验学习，然后有了机会，就会有目标和期望。
而我，不知道我可以达到他的期望吗，我不知道我可以给他什么快乐，真正完美的幸福。真的，我很害怕。怕不配，怕信不过，最怕自己，怕不能相信自己的去相信他。

记住，别轻易的对任何人说“你是我最重要的人”。

这句“你是我最重要的人”，
如果对方真的明白说出这句话的理由和真诚，此句，可以打动全世界人的心，让人完全相信爱，一切完美。
但对每个人都说过一模一样的‘名句’，这会让人很难相信你的真心真意，反而会让人不敢相信你，甚至可以伤感情。

“你是我最重要的人”
不是不能说，但该这一句应该留给你生命很重要很重要的人，像你最珍惜的父母，亲人，朋友，真心爱的人。只有他们才是最有资格接受你的真心。
所以说，
不是每个人可以随意接受这句话，也不可以喜欢很爽快的随地跟人说“你是我最重要的人”。要记住哦！

说了一大堆，也只不过想更了解什么是爱情，人对人之间感情。

明天下雨，天晴后，
努力做自己，为自己的世界染上美丽的景色。

Summer 2010

2010-05-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

Summer. 夏天

My favorite season. Thats when ice cream and flip-flops dominates the world.

Summer is all year long in Singapore. But the weather is HOT !!
Vancouver summer is pretty with lots of colourful tulips, yellow and white daisy. I miss the colour spectrum across the green.

This year summer is going to be different. Very exciting ! Lots of opportunity for me to pursue my dream !!

Spend time to relax, and reflect. Think about yourself and room for improvements :)

People, look forward to FIFA South Africa 2010, Toy Story 3 and much more !!!

Hope there is no more natural disasters.

GOOD LUCK,
ENJOY

Jing Hui

2010 Life like it

2010-01-05T21:36:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year 2010.

Abit too late, but still its not that~ late. Its a new year, a brand new start. All the best wishes to everyone.

But, alot of things still remain the same. I mean, life still repeats itself dont they? I will be getting older and older, no more teenage life!! What a leap!

Being in Canada still seems so unreal to me. Last year at the same time, I was still panicking trying to get study my arse off to score for IB, writting university entrance essays, fumbling over thousands of university websites and faculties, BOMBARDING university staffs with TONS of emails, i bet its Information capacity overload. Just then, I learned, i really really really need to be KIASU to get my ways around Canada (Hey, Dont blame me...I'd actually lived in the renound over the top kiasu place Singapore). Ppl here are just to nice and relax. So, need to be exaggerated and sorta like an donk as well.

Really, I do miss Singapore ALOT! I miss all the clubs, the river, the people, the a-lian and a-biao, and how i dont need to be botthered by how much I spent and the smell of the sea! Sentosa !! Well, really cant go home YET.

Its been tiring being alone. Really it does. But really, I've learn alot more. But what else can I do? My mentality: Out here alone, time for you to independent, be yourself. Endure, gratitude, respect, work hard.
It hurts when one of them is offended. But, I am too nice... But what? I will wish you bad luck too if you dare cross my line. Xiao Zha Bo.

In the end,
you learn,
Life is like a train ride that takes you away from the sweetest home and that there is no turning back at all.

WORK HARD !!! PPL, i can tell 2010 is gonna be good !

Fifa and Olympics :P Yup tats right. I m still loving Germany's Kolse. HOT HOT HOT !

突然好想你

2009-10-18T20:41:00.000-07:00

秋天

大学的秋天-

浪漫，优美，安静，沉默，孤独，悲哀，思念，回忆。

红红的枫叶从眼前飘过，坐在高高的松树下，听着一片宁静，看着松鼠的互动。

我的秋天-

街道上每个人都是一对对，牵牵手。自己提着一把伞，听着自己的脚步；

不知不觉，

突然想起你，

突然模糊的眼睛。

想起你，想起你们，想起我们，想起大家。突然想问“你还过的好吗？”

- 快乐或委屈?

夏天快回来。。。秋天开始没收每个人的快乐，我想看见大家的笑容。

Absolute nothing.

2009-07-10T21:19:00.001-07:00

Finally! I've retrieved my login details after a year, while most of the time i've forgot about it.
Anyhow, I am VERY VERY DONE with IB and off to UNI !!!
Things are great, but really, i wonder how much strength and blood my parents spend in giving me this opportunity to go there. Yet, I've literally done nothing, and also, nearly disappoint them. 对不起。

Been through so much this year... I've gain so much, but what have i contribute? Right now this moment, i am already wasting my time, putting lives in danger from hunger, heat, global warming. I wished i can do something. Action.

没有朋友的生活，还真闷。更不用说，没有家人的陪伴，还真孤独。我想人都是这样的。。。

想要有100种生活。

朋友阿，我真得很想你们。

WHIMPSs

2008-07-16T10:35:00.000-07:00

woah! SUMMER time :> best time of the year!
luvin it n enjoying it. DONE NOTHING OVER HOLIDAY- the key to be a successful student. SLACKING away away.

MTV ASIA AWARDS. i m goin. HOW? tak tau lah, Darm freakin MTV VJ TAYA didnt pick me. Guys in KL, go MTV Roadshow Damansara Cineleisure July 19/20 to stand a chance to win a FREE TICKET to MTV ASIA AWARDS @ Genting! MAKE SURE, tat freakin VJ pick u, even u dont know the answer, JUST GET ON STAGE. CUZ UWILL DEFINATELY AUTOMATICALLY GET THE TICKET already!!!! I M serious.. Believe me ok? n ya, depends ur luck... It's a big big show, n really wanna b there cuz, yea SUPER JUNIOR are performing (13 members together- hope), Panic at the Disco, The Click Five, Jabbawockes (cant spell-one of best dance crew in USA), Pussycatdolls, Leona Lewis, The Script, Stephanie Sun, hosted by Jerad Leto, Karen Mok. Don't want to go? u miss everything then, WHEN WILL MSIA EVER HAV TIS KIND OF PERFORMANCE???? its even better than the Singfest/ F1 in singapore... PLS go ok? cuz

"U ONLY GET TO BE A TEENAGER ONCE"

(thanks Joanne for that miricurlous quote)

guess there nothing much. goin to watch movies. got a short hair cut (but doenst really suit personality), research for assigment. watch Team Medical Dragon, jap drama.

just to say, who ever read my blog, THANK YOU ! and let me tell u, who ever hav blog linked to other person, i really enjoyed reading everyone's as well. So thanks for givin pleasure n me to waste time.

very hungry now (2 am).
But i realised dont always eat, or go yc.
[YC,eat= use food+ fuel = use money for demand = use earth's resource = rise in PRICE= unstable economy]
DONT WASTE, DONT BE OBESE, cuz will lead to increase in OIL PRICE !!! so
(me bein a economic student. succesful?)

bye. GO on DIET. M'sian loves to eat (Good thing!) BUT, A BIT TOO MUCH.
breakfast, brunch, lunch, hi-tea, dinner, xiu-ye. Nasi lemak,Curry Mee,Goreng (stuff), Teh/Kopi, ABC...
Solution= Start to starve ! (lightbult! smarter than einstein)

最近，我的朋友是娃娃。

2008-05-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

奸人我好討厭妳(們)

*越來越難過-吳克群

我們認識得太快。還沒看見真實的面目就陷入-友誼的陷阱。
之後，才知道原來妳是表面化的人- 假。可愛甜型的妳，吸引了許多男人對妳的好感。但他們是盲眼的，也不知道妳的曾經（玩弄他們的無知）。把他們當成玩具。厭倦了一個，就換新的另一個。妳還對得起他們嗎？

看來我不能再相信妳了。我不是嫉妒妳，也不是不喜歡妳，也不是恨妳。
只是討厭妳的作爲，妳的謊言，妳的假意，妳的動作- 一切對我，妳已沒有真正值得欣賞的價值。每個人都有眼睛-妳是裝innocent，還是如此的innocent；我們一時分不清而已。
我，知道了，這段友誼沒有結果，只有假的。等到一天，我妳他覺得很辛苦的演場戲，我們遲早也會結束。我准備了。

可憐的朋友，我曾如此的相信妳不會是她的下一個玩偶。誰知，他現在成了妳的女友。--無言-- 荒唐--。操+屁。你已離去。顯然，我不能對妳說啥事了。不能再開開心心的，毫無憂愁的跟妳說笑。你笨，我蠢。相信了她的陰謀、謊言。

不能了。快要受不了。

...

每次看到你，心緒。也不知該告訴你她清純可愛藏起的背影。不知道。

借酒消愁。狂歡起舞。dance till the dawn ends.

我懷念以前的我，以前的朋友，真正無虛的朋友。all my friends in NIS, Kuantan, Shanghai. U are the ones that i loved so much, and that, I dearly missed you all very much... .

May is here. April went fast. 浪費時間。

好久好久。無家可貴，不知心情往哪兒擺。

漂在海洋，沒了可靠的岸邊。

我，正在尋找答案。

Spore is boring ne. Want to do so much, but restricted. I have fallen in love with the coolest biggest korean group ever, with 13 members, SUPER JUNIOR ! with one of the having the same birthday as me. They are the funniest ever. Love them much. Leeteuk,Hankyung,Heechul,Shiwon,Donghae,Sungmin,Shindong,Yesung, Eunhyuk, Kibum, Ryeowook, Khuhyun a ONLY 13 group '.

Super Junior. SJ ADDICTION !

SUPER J ! LUVER!

(baaah, exams are comin in 2 weeks and i am not even ready,dammit. n group4 cdms)
Report (on my subjects): Math-haha.die. CHEM-ON AIR flying. ECON- ASS. Eng Oral- shit! Chinese- F*k! . Drama- OLY CRAP! (Dammit.) Basically. last blog of school.

主人、娃娃、玩偶 = 一夢幻、一個舞台、一場精彩演出。我們全都在演戲。快樂嗎？

It's a blah blah day

2008-03-06T22:17:00.000-08:00

Yea, everything has been quite awesome in school (i m at school apparently), and
WATS school for? if lik only 20 ppl of the whole grade is in skul- OBVIOUSLY teacherss arent gonna teach. (OH, my grade got 70 ppl !!) HEHE, headin down to orchard later. :>

k, so earlier this week smthing that my teacher said struck my mind. Ever read the book 1984? Its a really good book, u shud read it. Well, he says tat we r movin into the situation of 1984, which is, exposing ourself MORE n MORE To be WATCHED by "Big Brothers", and so, doesnt this mean that we are engaging ourself into the WATCHED situation? well, blogs, facebook,friendster and everything on the net which showed our personal emotion watched by others. For us, the new teens is to express our thoughts and feelings. But then, think about it, are we getting the freedom from NOT-BEING-WATCHED and "controled by media"? Get wat i mean?? Well, just to let u think about it.

Yesterday, i chatted wit my best friend- :> she's da best. Oh man , i missed her so much! havent seen her since last last year. Time passed so fast. Missed her.
Yea, btw... another concern, joanne is NOT coming to singapore, pretty sad case. But all the thing, wished u the best !

A pissed moody blog

2008-02-19T07:37:00.000-08:00

开学了- 新年过后的第二个周。
不知不觉地就在上个礼拜作了很多功课，测验。每份学业功课对我是非常重要的！！不能随意的完成。要努力，不能懒惰！
哎。。。。到现在还有什么呢？朋友的烦恼也开始的增加~ 身边的事情socialogy不平凡。
为什么？没什么。

其实，女孩们的战争是多么的得不堪设想！我的要好朋友就在我的眼前从她的言行无影无踪的跟随；现在尴尬的气氛就在我面前。所有事情都在改变，变得奇怪。三人的友谊就这样慢慢的结化吗？？三人-并不是我曾拥有的朋友数字；五人才是正确的。
我恨不得要说她，但是我一定要怪她！！！叫她三八婆，偷朋友的贼，友谊的毁灭者，失败的创造者。我不喜欢。她已是我的敌人，现在还要成为我精神上的敌人。我讨厌她，并不是她的错；只是该事件的转变。利用人是她的专长。。。发表她的点滴像于全世界。靠你爸妈的！去你的。
For you ,
You're dangerous. You're dangerous to my life. You're dangerious to my spirits, to my self -esteem and I can't know you anymore or even remeber you.

Then, well, totally akward today. WTH n F*K shithole.
an asshole losted my stuffff.... n f*K hell no, i m gonna tell da whole world about ur f*kin excuse for losing 2 of my important stuff ......... WTF ... u f8kin ass. i mean, seriously, i m gonna swear amap since u... f8kin screw my day today and waste time to rewrite da same stufff.... FFF***KKK u . i f*KIN swear u will b sacked in 2 months time, cuz u bloody cannot teach any IB shit tat u were suppose to teach besides the spice girls video... I MEAN , u r f*KIN retarted.

Stepping up

2008-01-25T21:44:00.000-08:00

就是今天。让我过的非常快乐。
是的，我爱的排球!! 最爱得运动! 学校的一场比赛，那有如何?
男女队一起打，感觉很好玩，刺激。最重要的是我真的有了很多的第一次。什么第一次?
当然是跟了好多不认识的人(男的)一起打! 我的意思是说，跟了同班的人但有没说过话的人一起‘首次合作’真正的不担心自己的害羞感。haha, 跟了可爱的Kevin,charming Karl, 可怕/好的Min一起打。还有AKINO，她超帅又酷的!!!
今天真的玩的很开心 !!! 也让我知道了原来从NIS的训练(三年前)和比赛的经验，让我得到今天这个快乐。
是的，我现在了解许多人的忍耐和努力，不断放弃的精神。。。是我该学习的；而不是complaint!! 接受时间的培养，然后慢慢的成长。
就这一场比赛，打醒了谢竞慧

This is, a a miracle's dream. Nevertheless. Thank you Time

2008 and !

2008-01-03T20:37:00.000-08:00

Happy new year i shall wish,

although i m saying everything to myself.

2008 ! seriously. its unbelievable. Time passed "SLightlY" too quick.

Its just that when i recall the time 5 years ago, at the point of leavin msia, have changed my whole life. What can i say? Regrette? Nah, not at all, oppurtunity? Possibly. But Experiencesss, definately.

Ja, jus in these 4 years, i have moved 3 times, twice in china, from nanjing to shanghai, then to singapore. Wat a life i've got. But of all those time, there were much memories we gain and losed, but never i have forgotten my pre-teen in Kuantan, it was jus more than wonderful. Then in china, so much have had happened, knowing that theres tons of koreans that always dominate half of school's population, and ego germans which weird sense of humours, and rich young Chinese(HK n Taiwan) bitches and arschhlorch tat screwed my life in shanghai. Haha, suffering these 我老爸有的是钱，不读书也可以 attitude for i freaking whole year! And, of course, i couldn't wait to leave shanghai to singapore! but honestly, it was a year of realisation that hit me quick, but of all, everybit of memory was awesome to me!

Singapore

I quite like singapore, people in school r nice, well just blonds+stupidity is the major issue, or else everything is really fine ! :> Ya, i should encourage ppl to come here n stay wit me ! (gettin lonely) n wanna escape from high security controllers. heheh

Bloody 2008 is here !!!!! Walau, so fast ady. Beh Tahan loh. Later when school starts rite, i got so much to do ady.... aiyo, i missed everyone so much and esp TAIWAN 2007 . Tat was like my best trip ever... i spent my 06 xmas there until 07, cant believe it was such a good place lehhh. Then i spent 07 xmas in malaysia eatin lik a pig bah, thanks joanne n alice feed me lik a pig. Then new year wit melissa in da pathetic- way too calm vivo in spore. LOL ... no comment, a big HAHAH!!

ALLL DA BEST .

i still missed everyone !!!

jing

A buble of voices

2007-10-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

I need a space to breath. Just a place.
To shout, to scream, to cry, to get high, to get drunk, to get over my life,.
I want simplicity, not complication
I want not the perfect, but the pure and originality
I want my own soul back, Losted into the buzz
Who am I? What am I? I don’t know
I want an answer
I cant hear myself, I hear noises
I need a space
I need a place to rest. In peace.
Where, what, which, when, how and who. Basic english can complicate life.
I am tired, I dont know who am i...
Selffish, unhappy or quiet, introvert; naive. I dont know.
Pity me not, i hated pity. I need answer, not from my mother or father or blood related, but from who?
I don't know.

Sigh, blog are just a place to express feelings and thoughs. And so i just did...
I need a empty space with stars that i can gaze about. Quiet.