原来这一阵子,成长的过程中,我搞砸了.
工作,感情,学业...还未有所改善;人品也可能变本加厉-人缘越来越差,根本没有意想我各各不入的跟外人一样.
怎么了?!!
是我改变了?还是我环境改变了? 我真的以为我可以撑强...原来是我的幼稚.
在此,我要说明,我对不起关心我的亲友 我让大家失望了.我会好好反省,做好自己.感谢你的关心和照顾.对不起
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
New year, new term, new start, new life
Inilah tahun baru. This is a new year.
Its a new start, new term in school, New prespective, new life, new goals.
Most likely, my last year in school. As such, I want to get the most out of my degree, so I am exploring other courses that I have never thought of taking.
Wine science. E-business. E-marketing.
I should say, all of these are GOOD courses as its really integrative and reality related, and no longer anything textbook says(most of it dont even want you to buy the textbook - saves me lots of $$$).
I spoke to one of my prof, WOW, no offence sir, he isnt the best teacher around, but he is a good person to speak to. He is a consultant for many many many airlines, airports, former chairman for transport development group, ATAT.U pull out his resume, HAK SEI YEN.
I am really liking my major, though maybe ppl from other "majority" major would be like "psh... oh u in tlog major". But U know what, I believe! and that makes it worthwhile to pursuit my own interest rather than following norms.
Will work hard for better results. BRING IT ON 2012, I challenge you !!
WE ALL JIA YOU JIA YOU !!
Notes on 2011,
A crappy lousy horrible start to the year with troubles. Naive, stupid me.. why so easily fooled, taken advantage, used, manipulated, again and again, over and over. Maybe i m too courteous and too nice to people i care about. So bad that my academic was flunked. I am not going back it the same thing. DONT MESS WITH ME B**CH. After summer, then, classes started. Everythink okay liao, found my own directions, my own goals and working toward it. Its just like that.
2011, nothing great, nothing significant, but ya, you did threw me off tangent. But d i am gonna combat you like crazy if it happens again.
just looking forward for 2012.
Our best year to come !!
GOOD LUCK, friends and family.
Its a new start, new term in school, New prespective, new life, new goals.
Most likely, my last year in school. As such, I want to get the most out of my degree, so I am exploring other courses that I have never thought of taking.
Wine science. E-business. E-marketing.
I should say, all of these are GOOD courses as its really integrative and reality related, and no longer anything textbook says(most of it dont even want you to buy the textbook - saves me lots of $$$).
I spoke to one of my prof, WOW, no offence sir, he isnt the best teacher around, but he is a good person to speak to. He is a consultant for many many many airlines, airports, former chairman for transport development group, ATAT.U pull out his resume, HAK SEI YEN.
I am really liking my major, though maybe ppl from other "majority" major would be like "psh... oh u in tlog major". But U know what, I believe! and that makes it worthwhile to pursuit my own interest rather than following norms.
Will work hard for better results. BRING IT ON 2012, I challenge you !!
WE ALL JIA YOU JIA YOU !!
Notes on 2011,
A crappy lousy horrible start to the year with troubles. Naive, stupid me.. why so easily fooled, taken advantage, used, manipulated, again and again, over and over. Maybe i m too courteous and too nice to people i care about. So bad that my academic was flunked. I am not going back it the same thing. DONT MESS WITH ME B**CH. After summer, then, classes started. Everythink okay liao, found my own directions, my own goals and working toward it. Its just like that.
2011, nothing great, nothing significant, but ya, you did threw me off tangent. But d i am gonna combat you like crazy if it happens again.
just looking forward for 2012.
Our best year to come !!
GOOD LUCK, friends and family.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
对不起
对不起.
我对不起你.
原来还有别人更关心,更爱你...
而我根本没真的把你当一回事. 对我而言,你的存在真的有没有意义,我也不知道.
我太不自量了.
是我伤害了你,对不起.
我让你失去了一切,
我让你痛苦,受伤害.
来世,你讨厌我, 没关系, 应该得.
只希望在你可以离开以后,要更加幸福,安心,可以有更好的仁爱.
对不起 k.o.
我委屈了你.
我对不起你.
原来还有别人更关心,更爱你...
而我根本没真的把你当一回事. 对我而言,你的存在真的有没有意义,我也不知道.
我太不自量了.
是我伤害了你,对不起.
我让你失去了一切,
我让你痛苦,受伤害.
来世,你讨厌我, 没关系, 应该得.
只希望在你可以离开以后,要更加幸福,安心,可以有更好的仁爱.
对不起 k.o.
我委屈了你.
Friday, October 7, 2011
Recent development
Recently,
Feels much more enjoyable learning in class.
Feels much more freedom gained.
Feels much more quiet than before.
Feels much more stuttering speaking English.
Feels much more easily strained and hungry.
Feels much more time passed too quickly at most times.
Feels much more unworthy to find resolution, waste of time.
Feels Autumn Red leafs are pretty, but Spring flowers are more vibrant.
Feels solitude for being alone.
Feels thoughts and thinking about world.
Feels the lonely, cold lonely chilly nights.
Feels intimidated at times.
Feels detached.
Still feel unable to find the center of gravity.
Still feel unable to learn things coming against me
Still feel like having high hopes, but dissapointed.
Feels like I not learn to love what I do at best. Not that I'd like to feel like this, feels like I want to flee out of this spectrum. Too much grey clouds to dampen a bright future.
This place, is not my world.
I am fleeing to capture my awaiting opportunity ahead of me.
Feels much more enjoyable learning in class.
Feels much more freedom gained.
Feels much more quiet than before.
Feels much more stuttering speaking English.
Feels much more easily strained and hungry.
Feels much more time passed too quickly at most times.
Feels much more unworthy to find resolution, waste of time.
Feels Autumn Red leafs are pretty, but Spring flowers are more vibrant.
Feels solitude for being alone.
Feels thoughts and thinking about world.
Feels the lonely, cold lonely chilly nights.
Feels intimidated at times.
Feels detached.
Still feel unable to find the center of gravity.
Still feel unable to learn things coming against me
Still feel like having high hopes, but dissapointed.
Feels like I not learn to love what I do at best. Not that I'd like to feel like this, feels like I want to flee out of this spectrum. Too much grey clouds to dampen a bright future.
This place, is not my world.
I am fleeing to capture my awaiting opportunity ahead of me.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Good luck
Everytime you fall down, you stood up again and fight your hardship.
Now, its time do it again, prove to yourself once again you can manage it.
Because there is every reason in the world to believe that you'll do well. Good luck !
Now, its time do it again, prove to yourself once again you can manage it.
Because there is every reason in the world to believe that you'll do well. Good luck !
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
again the problem ??
right now, studying for econ midterm tomorrow at 9pm in the library. have been burried in econ for the whole day now... ...
then i suddenly remembered. I seriously wanna ask: why again??! what is your unlogical problem ??
bcuz i got a serious problem understanding with this peculiar unexplainable nightmare. Got woken up early morning to this nightmare for the 3rd time cuz I 'saw' her AGAIN (just in dream) Hmm... havent add up the number of actually seeing this person in real life, then it will be quite a dozen times !!! what does this mean leh ?! its like every time i have this nightmare, the situation will get worse and it's becoming more unfortunate. why you want to hunt me down ? have i done anything wrong to you that I don't deserve a good sleep ? nightmare can lead to insomnia.
But, nevermind this, my worse nightmare ever, ECON 355 - international trade. WHY WHY WHY ?!
cuz its TRADE TRADE TRADE TRADE TRADE TRADE. really regret taking this over summer. most unliked econ course so far. AIYOYOYO aaaaa
GOOD LUCK !!!! must endure ..... summer is still long. ENDURE PAIN cuz sweetness is coming soon :) cant wait till i go home / spend time with friends & family !!! 1 month !!!
Friday, May 6, 2011
Joy of recognizing true happiness.
Living the enjoyable summer week with shows, visiting friends, staying in spend quality time, watch shows, picking flowers. Good mother nature, thank you for your sunshine :)
Went to sing K with friends, we were able to make the best time. Little more expensive than expected, but nevermind the money. It was worth it, at least i think.
In life, you can earn and save alot of money, but if money cannot buy REAL happiness that leaps out of your heart, its a waste of time and waste of quality life we took for granted. Like it says, "Happiness is only REAL when SHARED". I agree with it.
I am so glad,thankful. I am so happy with my life right now.
Thank you all friends, family and love ones.
Went to sing K with friends, we were able to make the best time. Little more expensive than expected, but nevermind the money. It was worth it, at least i think.
In life, you can earn and save alot of money, but if money cannot buy REAL happiness that leaps out of your heart, its a waste of time and waste of quality life we took for granted. Like it says, "Happiness is only REAL when SHARED". I agree with it.
I am so glad,thankful. I am so happy with my life right now.
Thank you all friends, family and love ones.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
大学二年
在温哥华 读了两年的大学。 其实生活过的满满足。主要是快乐为本能。
我觉得大学让我们累计生活上的点点滴滴，帮助我们成长进步。你是否有别的看法呢？
读了两年，本人认为课堂内学的道理很多时候真正生活是派不上场，道理完全是废得，一点都没有用。
我想若人生活着只为了文凭；这一长纸，那真的浪费掉我们宝贵的青春，非常的可惜。还有读书需要 很多很多钱钱钱 ！！ 负担好大- 钱，我没有，默默承认我真的抗不起！！ 哎。
我要感激很多身边的重要亲人和朋友，他们的存在对我意义重大，很感谢认识他们。没有你们，我得大学人生还真的会无聊到~ 吐血的那种，缺乏色彩光芒。
-马来西亚帮朋友，每一次跟这你们一起玩，吃饭，做功课，闲聊八卦正经-全部都很有趣，很单纯的快乐。你们就海相有种特殊的光环围绕这你们。和你们在一起永远都让我觉得特别的温馨，有家乡温暖的光环，文化风情完全不缺乏人情味！真的很开心跟你们在同校念书。
-Indos, 每次都是吃吃吃，玩玩玩- mahjong,ps3, jangka，在fraser hall开party :) 差不多每个都是engineers, but hanging out with Indos are are always cool because each of them have a different distinct outgoing personality that makes the group so dynamic. Not to forget, helpful as well (help with getting girls). I still remember i first met Nelvin and then who knows, i know every Indo after that. Strange, yet funny. Also thank them alot for making life interesting at all time.
- Maggie : the very very first person I spoke to in UBC !! so glad to have your help and support all the time !! I just really like ur shark :) ur room is always productive when i am around :) I m so happy with u !
- High school (Rachel & Kevin): Glad to know you both came here with me. without Rachel the baker, no Cake Pops, cheese cake, comforts talks and gossips about ISS. Without Kevin in commerce, i would just hate group work ALOT more (good team and good leader).
- Singaporeans/HKers/Sauderers: through expansion of friendships. Start to get to know more n more ppl from the faculty, the circle of friends smaller and then we 'll be a one big circle. This impresses me all the time, but I wonder what it is like when life presses on.
2nd year was TOUGH, no kidding. So many profs, so many (10)commerce courses to go through.
I would say, I like Stats prof -Berkoitwotz the most as he is the most intuitive and stimulating prof who tells COLD COLD jokes that cheers students up. Also AZIZ, INDIAN accounting prof who tells bad COLD jokes and tries to rap Enimen, every 9am. VERY FUNNY.
ECON& Econ environment(the extension of externalities) both are OK but the assignment was painful. cuz u TYPE econ graphs using WORD doc cuz "it was too much hassle to read MESSy hand writting...BS! wat happens when u have to mark hand written midterm n finals ??? " - actually this is to cut down cost for lower TA hours cuz econ department got budget cut.
decision making- Brian Graham,arrogant, and chooses ppl based on BRIGHT colours clothings) No comment.
MIS, marketing - Fairly good course since relevant and very business wise courses. Recommend to take :) BUT beware of GROUPWORK !!!! GROUP work used to be the best assigment in high school, but not anymore (esp. random assign). comment "... ..." or T_T depending on members. Ask any 2nd year sauders, everyone will have their own bitter-sweet story on groupwork.
HR - fairly boring n like most friends say its USELESS but the prof makes lecture good cuz he tells us about experiences in workforce. HR should be made as elective course rather required !
taking a break from my next exam. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE, have a wonderful summer !!! I know i will :) going back home!!!!
我觉得大学让我们累计生活上的点点滴滴，帮助我们成长进步。你是否有别的看法呢？
读了两年，本人认为课堂内学的道理很多时候真正生活是派不上场，道理完全是废得，一点都没有用。
我想若人生活着只为了文凭；这一长纸，那真的浪费掉我们宝贵的青春，非常的可惜。还有读书需要 很多很多钱钱钱 ！！ 负担好大- 钱，我没有，默默承认我真的抗不起！！ 哎。
我要感激很多身边的重要亲人和朋友，他们的存在对我意义重大，很感谢认识他们。没有你们，我得大学人生还真的会无聊到~ 吐血的那种，缺乏色彩光芒。
-马来西亚帮朋友，每一次跟这你们一起玩，吃饭，做功课，闲聊八卦正经-全部都很有趣，很单纯的快乐。你们就海相有种特殊的光环围绕这你们。和你们在一起永远都让我觉得特别的温馨，有家乡温暖的光环，文化风情完全不缺乏人情味！真的很开心跟你们在同校念书。
-Indos, 每次都是吃吃吃，玩玩玩- mahjong,ps3, jangka，在fraser hall开party :) 差不多每个都是engineers, but hanging out with Indos are are always cool because each of them have a different distinct outgoing personality that makes the group so dynamic. Not to forget, helpful as well (help with getting girls). I still remember i first met Nelvin and then who knows, i know every Indo after that. Strange, yet funny. Also thank them alot for making life interesting at all time.
- Maggie : the very very first person I spoke to in UBC !! so glad to have your help and support all the time !! I just really like ur shark :) ur room is always productive when i am around :) I m so happy with u !
- High school (Rachel & Kevin): Glad to know you both came here with me. without Rachel the baker, no Cake Pops, cheese cake, comforts talks and gossips about ISS. Without Kevin in commerce, i would just hate group work ALOT more (good team and good leader).
- Singaporeans/HKers/Sauderers: through expansion of friendships. Start to get to know more n more ppl from the faculty, the circle of friends smaller and then we 'll be a one big circle. This impresses me all the time, but I wonder what it is like when life presses on.
2nd year was TOUGH, no kidding. So many profs, so many (10)commerce courses to go through.
I would say, I like Stats prof -Berkoitwotz the most as he is the most intuitive and stimulating prof who tells COLD COLD jokes that cheers students up. Also AZIZ, INDIAN accounting prof who tells bad COLD jokes and tries to rap Enimen, every 9am. VERY FUNNY.
ECON& Econ environment(the extension of externalities) both are OK but the assignment was painful. cuz u TYPE econ graphs using WORD doc cuz "it was too much hassle to read MESSy hand writting...BS! wat happens when u have to mark hand written midterm n finals ??? " - actually this is to cut down cost for lower TA hours cuz econ department got budget cut.
decision making- Brian Graham,arrogant, and chooses ppl based on BRIGHT colours clothings) No comment.
MIS, marketing - Fairly good course since relevant and very business wise courses. Recommend to take :) BUT beware of GROUPWORK !!!! GROUP work used to be the best assigment in high school, but not anymore (esp. random assign). comment "... ..." or T_T depending on members. Ask any 2nd year sauders, everyone will have their own bitter-sweet story on groupwork.
HR - fairly boring n like most friends say its USELESS but the prof makes lecture good cuz he tells us about experiences in workforce. HR should be made as elective course rather required !
taking a break from my next exam. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE, have a wonderful summer !!! I know i will :) going back home!!!!
Friday, January 14, 2011
有什么
没什么可以说的。 现在是“适应”期。
朋友啊，原谅我可能会不开心而对人冷漠。
某朋友，有点难受心会很烦。你比我容易，因为很多事都不会给你回忆；根你相反。
还有。
如果我不喜欢你很烂的教学方法，我给脸色，你又怎样？？ 别怪我。 你的饭碗是我们学生给的钱，看学生不爽应该比看老板的脸色好很多吧？对不对？是不是？ So you dont have to walk by me and KACAU me ok ? I dont like to see your face. Hodoh bodoh.
朋友啊，原谅我可能会不开心而对人冷漠。
某朋友，有点难受心会很烦。你比我容易，因为很多事都不会给你回忆；根你相反。
还有。
如果我不喜欢你很烂的教学方法，我给脸色，你又怎样？？ 别怪我。 你的饭碗是我们学生给的钱，看学生不爽应该比看老板的脸色好很多吧？对不对？是不是？ So you dont have to walk by me and KACAU me ok ? I dont like to see your face. Hodoh bodoh.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Holding on to faith.
Maybe. Just maybe, it will work.
but I am filled with doubts. Can patience endure the journey? waiting for a promise and least sense of achievement?
I can't stop wondering. But all i can do is pray hard and keep holding onto faith.
Let FATE decides on its way.
HOPE is useless. Never trust it. It hurts and tarnishes dreams.
Maybe. Just maybe, it will work.
but I am filled with doubts. Can patience endure the journey? waiting for a promise and least sense of achievement?
I can't stop wondering. But all i can do is pray hard and keep holding onto faith.
Let FATE decides on its way.
HOPE is useless. Never trust it. It hurts and tarnishes dreams.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Closure 2010
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2011.
Its now time to reorganize life and reestablish goal.
Sigh....most undesired incident happened at the most crucial time. Its a bit useless to regret,since the fact is already proven. Over or lack of confident kills. Hard work is proven NOT to show, any extra effort won't count. Still unable to accept the fact, hanging off the cliff at the moment. So lost....
Need another kick in the head again.
Maybe its going to be allright, maybe not.
Happy holiday. Everyone have fun. Can't wait till 2011.
Just wanna wash away 2010 down the drain please. wahh
Have a great time !!
Its now time to reorganize life and reestablish goal.
Sigh....most undesired incident happened at the most crucial time. Its a bit useless to regret,since the fact is already proven. Over or lack of confident kills. Hard work is proven NOT to show, any extra effort won't count. Still unable to accept the fact, hanging off the cliff at the moment. So lost....
Need another kick in the head again.
Maybe its going to be allright, maybe not.
Happy holiday. Everyone have fun. Can't wait till 2011.
Just wanna wash away 2010 down the drain please. wahh
Have a great time !!
Friday, December 17, 2010
小开心。
考完试了！很兴奋啊！ 放假了，可以放下一切摆平所有东西。
最近也不知道要做什么了。总觉得有很多时间，要开始狂追戏、吃‘喝、睡睡睡睡。决不要碰书！！
2010 已在尾端，这一年过的极度的快。去年还在想来加拿大读书，离家依依不舍；现在还是对家依依不舍，却踏入了第二阶段，从小孩少年磨练成大人。生活真的有很大的转变。
回家。
现在每当看到人拿着行李箱，总是会心里默默的羡慕、嫉妒他们。看着父母为孩子收拾，乘车（车厢塞爆满），哇，就是看他们开心，觉得特别的温馨。
家就是福。
家是心灵的避风港。
有家就是幸福。
我会好好的珍惜爱我家人，因为他们是我人生永远最重要的人。
有人问， 为什么不喜欢这里？想不出理由来推论。
是没有理由不喜欢，但就不能喜欢，
。心灵空虚。没有一个安全感、脚踏实地的起点‘没有未来的方向感。很难稳定。
真正的家是不会让人有这种感觉的。哎，心疼啊。
好的， 我替每个人去玩回家的人要玩的开开心心，也要记得安全！ 为大家都开心！！
1st movie kick off:
"The Notebook" - A Novel by Nicolas Sparks made into a movie. Its remarkably touching as always. I've watched bits n pieces of it before, but dont really remember much of the plot. But, the scary thing is the plot is moving with current situation, way too closely related !!
The movie is excellent quality.Hard movie to find these days. Girls, Guys, Its a MUST WATCH movie in your life, if you have the time !! Strongly recommend it.
"The pains of true love reside at the heart or our existence."
懒得写了，还有很多东西埋藏在心里的。
最近也不知道要做什么了。总觉得有很多时间，要开始狂追戏、吃‘喝、睡睡睡睡。决不要碰书！！
2010 已在尾端，这一年过的极度的快。去年还在想来加拿大读书，离家依依不舍；现在还是对家依依不舍，却踏入了第二阶段，从小孩少年磨练成大人。生活真的有很大的转变。
回家。
现在每当看到人拿着行李箱，总是会心里默默的羡慕、嫉妒他们。看着父母为孩子收拾，乘车（车厢塞爆满），哇，就是看他们开心，觉得特别的温馨。
家就是福。
家是心灵的避风港。
有家就是幸福。
我会好好的珍惜爱我家人，因为他们是我人生永远最重要的人。
有人问， 为什么不喜欢这里？想不出理由来推论。
是没有理由不喜欢，但就不能喜欢，
。心灵空虚。没有一个安全感、脚踏实地的起点‘没有未来的方向感。很难稳定。
真正的家是不会让人有这种感觉的。哎，心疼啊。
好的， 我替每个人去玩回家的人要玩的开开心心，也要记得安全！ 为大家都开心！！
1st movie kick off:
"The Notebook" - A Novel by Nicolas Sparks made into a movie. Its remarkably touching as always. I've watched bits n pieces of it before, but dont really remember much of the plot. But, the scary thing is the plot is moving with current situation, way too closely related !!
The movie is excellent quality.Hard movie to find these days. Girls, Guys, Its a MUST WATCH movie in your life, if you have the time !! Strongly recommend it.
"The pains of true love reside at the heart or our existence."
懒得写了，还有很多东西埋藏在心里的。
Saturday, November 13, 2010
50 days till 2011
I just cant get myself focus to do Econ or Accounting at the moment. Just cannot focus for no apparent reason!!! Procrastination through blogging !
Recently,
I cooked Curry Chicken, and steamed Hainanese Chicken Rice in rice Cooker with a dedicated helper. All the food turned out to be very delicious. I like to cook when I have the time and when i feel relaxed. Spent almost all the whole afternoon cooking.
Later at night, had dinner with the Indonesians at Fraser, good to see and catch up with friends since everyone is so busy this term. Nevertheless, it was a good dinner. We had Tofu with minced meat, Tau-ke(bean sprout) with egg, curry, soup with siew mai, mushroom, choi sum. I am also learning how to play Mahjong! It was fun, its a logic game.
Friday, ended class before 12pm, so I went out to grab Sushi with Siew Ying ! Thanks for the food and tour around your house! Also the bf advices & chatting :) Thank you.
My mama owned me again and again. She literally Nagged me through Facebook. All i have to say I love her. She's the wonder women of my life :) I miss her and my family so much. I want to go Cambodia with my family... too bad, it ok, it will be allright.
Also, hasn't been doing anything much other than spending time with dear V. Time seem to pass by so quickly because I am enjoying the time we spent together. There's no need to wow me or impress me because being yourself and that is all I need. Simplicity is always the best. Like wise, Thank YOU so much for effortless support and sucking up my pissed off hungry mood.
It only 2 weeks left till the end of my 2nd Year Term 1 ends, approx 50 days till 2011. Its too quick. I havent even do anything for my New Year Resolution !! No Way !! Time flies by.
Special mention about my accounting class, I m really liking my prof. He is a very nice man, although i still yet to go to his office hour, I think the advice sheet he gave out (seem useless to most people) is very precious and motivational tome. I really like one of the quote "You've earned your right to be proud of your effort regardless of how your grade" It makes me feel extremely positive and make me work harder ! Thank you prof.Aziz.
I am appreciating everything that I have right now, the grades I have, the wonderful friends and boyfriend I have, the semi-depressing life Canada has. I fall down before,I've managed to pull myself up before, so there's no excuse for me not making it Right? so, I am going to make changes to my Own life. I choose my own destiny. My best days are ahead of me. My other thought that encourages me :
Be THANKFUL and EARNEST of what've you got,
珍惜你自己有的一切，
because you've gained more than what you can lose.
因为你为自己赢了尊严，自己该拥有的。永远不会输。 加油！
i still Love listening to w-inds after 8 years !!! Inspirational and wonderful!
1- its a boyband that been around with me since i grow up with. A sense of familiarity, comfort, soothing, relaxing music they produce. Their music is still worth listening although many of the fans lost interest in them since the autotune and Kpop stormed the asian music.
2- lead singer's voice - very comforting, good voice, good looking, and exceptional voice.
3- I like the guy Ryohei- he is my dream guy !! beautiful smiles :)!!!
4- A fact that makes me different from others. I was exposed to Jpop, when others watched HK dramas, and Taiwanese dramas, but I had serious fandome over Jpop groups. People who knows me well understand my fetish for Japanese boys (ehm hints by JenJen)
now gotta go screw ECON ! Its accumulative for FINALS !!! its the whole textbook to study !! Waaahh.
Also Accounting and MIS !
Recently,
I cooked Curry Chicken, and steamed Hainanese Chicken Rice in rice Cooker with a dedicated helper. All the food turned out to be very delicious. I like to cook when I have the time and when i feel relaxed. Spent almost all the whole afternoon cooking.
Later at night, had dinner with the Indonesians at Fraser, good to see and catch up with friends since everyone is so busy this term. Nevertheless, it was a good dinner. We had Tofu with minced meat, Tau-ke(bean sprout) with egg, curry, soup with siew mai, mushroom, choi sum. I am also learning how to play Mahjong! It was fun, its a logic game.
Friday, ended class before 12pm, so I went out to grab Sushi with Siew Ying ! Thanks for the food and tour around your house! Also the bf advices & chatting :) Thank you.
My mama owned me again and again. She literally Nagged me through Facebook. All i have to say I love her. She's the wonder women of my life :) I miss her and my family so much. I want to go Cambodia with my family... too bad, it ok, it will be allright.
Also, hasn't been doing anything much other than spending time with dear V. Time seem to pass by so quickly because I am enjoying the time we spent together. There's no need to wow me or impress me because being yourself and that is all I need. Simplicity is always the best. Like wise, Thank YOU so much for effortless support and sucking up my pissed off hungry mood.
It only 2 weeks left till the end of my 2nd Year Term 1 ends, approx 50 days till 2011. Its too quick. I havent even do anything for my New Year Resolution !! No Way !! Time flies by.
Special mention about my accounting class, I m really liking my prof. He is a very nice man, although i still yet to go to his office hour, I think the advice sheet he gave out (seem useless to most people) is very precious and motivational tome. I really like one of the quote "You've earned your right to be proud of your effort regardless of how your grade" It makes me feel extremely positive and make me work harder ! Thank you prof.Aziz.
I am appreciating everything that I have right now, the grades I have, the wonderful friends and boyfriend I have, the semi-depressing life Canada has. I fall down before,I've managed to pull myself up before, so there's no excuse for me not making it Right? so, I am going to make changes to my Own life. I choose my own destiny. My best days are ahead of me. My other thought that encourages me :
Be THANKFUL and EARNEST of what've you got,
珍惜你自己有的一切，
because you've gained more than what you can lose.
因为你为自己赢了尊严，自己该拥有的。永远不会输。 加油！
i still Love listening to w-inds after 8 years !!! Inspirational and wonderful!
1- its a boyband that been around with me since i grow up with. A sense of familiarity, comfort, soothing, relaxing music they produce. Their music is still worth listening although many of the fans lost interest in them since the autotune and Kpop stormed the asian music.
2- lead singer's voice - very comforting, good voice, good looking, and exceptional voice.
3- I like the guy Ryohei- he is my dream guy !! beautiful smiles :)!!!
4- A fact that makes me different from others. I was exposed to Jpop, when others watched HK dramas, and Taiwanese dramas, but I had serious fandome over Jpop groups. People who knows me well understand my fetish for Japanese boys (ehm hints by JenJen)
now gotta go screw ECON ! Its accumulative for FINALS !!! its the whole textbook to study !! Waaahh.
Also Accounting and MIS !
Thursday, October 21, 2010
繁忙
忙.总在最忙的时候最多问题了就是逃不掉~ 好久没有写中文了,真的不习惯.
现在还过的很好,虽然很多人说我好像不开心,
是因为我要担心很多事情和成绩.
之前一直很累,很不爽, 但是我现在觉得还不错.凡事都要看开, be positive and optimistic ahh :)
econ课是我最喜欢的一科，但偏偏不能让我好好的开心上课。因为关系到一件很碍眼，碍手碍脚的事，算是我来温哥华最扯，最扯，最倒霉，扯到爆的时候。
就算我可能前世欠你人情也不需要put me into this awkward position.被炸到~~！I admit我倒霉。要玩我，捉弄我也好，不许要这样的惩罚我吧。我是会被玩死的。 Its a prolong torture,death penalty.
Thanks econ, just made my life so much more interesting to work with.
所以我还是先用这段时间就好好做回本人，过的开开心心，顺顺利利就好。不要为了小事而烦恼不值得我们的时间。No more putting up with everything :)
Coming up: econ midterm, accounting midterm, MIS report. I hope i will be freeier after this week ! Cant wait for the pumpkin weekend. Will study my ass off. No high expectation but will try my best.
要好好加油了！跟自己比赛。
我会在彩虹边界等待美好的未来。
我想吃Dim Sum, Ayam percik !
现在还过的很好,虽然很多人说我好像不开心,
是因为我要担心很多事情和成绩.
之前一直很累,很不爽, 但是我现在觉得还不错.凡事都要看开, be positive and optimistic ahh :)
econ课是我最喜欢的一科，但偏偏不能让我好好的开心上课。因为关系到一件很碍眼，碍手碍脚的事，算是我来温哥华最扯，最扯，最倒霉，扯到爆的时候。
就算我可能前世欠你人情也不需要put me into this awkward position.被炸到~~！I admit我倒霉。要玩我，捉弄我也好，不许要这样的惩罚我吧。我是会被玩死的。 Its a prolong torture,death penalty.
Thanks econ, just made my life so much more interesting to work with.
所以我还是先用这段时间就好好做回本人，过的开开心心，顺顺利利就好。不要为了小事而烦恼不值得我们的时间。No more putting up with everything :)
Coming up: econ midterm, accounting midterm, MIS report. I hope i will be freeier after this week ! Cant wait for the pumpkin weekend. Will study my ass off. No high expectation but will try my best.
要好好加油了！跟自己比赛。
我会在彩虹边界等待美好的未来。
我想吃Dim Sum, Ayam percik !
Monday, October 11, 2010
Urgh... long turkey weekend
Sorry lah.
Long weekend for Thanksgiving. Its been long !! Woohoo. too bad i m sick right now. Sort of dizzy and tired and everything. Not good.
I m just so sorry to my dears. I am always such a bad person. 90% of myself says I am. I dont deserve the goodness of this world. I have just made everyone around me feel sick, worrying about me, thinking about me when its really not needed. Its so stupid... but if i dont let it out, i m just gonna suffocate myself.....
aiyaaaa. too much things going on at the same time. last week was hell week !! too much streess and pressure.
But so glad some very very deep deep underground buried feelings are finally lifted out. it makes it alot easier for now, or else its gonna be like the BP oilspill if its kept longer and longer. hahaha. ok.
I m very happy to get this over with, i hope you got to know more about me because it made me realize how high my self defensive wall is built up over the years.
Will do another post soon. sleeping time !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA, I LOVE YOU. I am sorry I disappointed you and made you unhappy on your birthday. I am very very sorry. I wish you can nag at me right now telling me how 不乖 i am, how immature i am. I miss you alot and still i m sorry.
HAPPY THANKS,GIVING- TO SLEEP
Long weekend for Thanksgiving. Its been long !! Woohoo. too bad i m sick right now. Sort of dizzy and tired and everything. Not good.
I m just so sorry to my dears. I am always such a bad person. 90% of myself says I am. I dont deserve the goodness of this world. I have just made everyone around me feel sick, worrying about me, thinking about me when its really not needed. Its so stupid... but if i dont let it out, i m just gonna suffocate myself.....
aiyaaaa. too much things going on at the same time. last week was hell week !! too much streess and pressure.
But so glad some very very deep deep underground buried feelings are finally lifted out. it makes it alot easier for now, or else its gonna be like the BP oilspill if its kept longer and longer. hahaha. ok.
I m very happy to get this over with, i hope you got to know more about me because it made me realize how high my self defensive wall is built up over the years.
Will do another post soon. sleeping time !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA, I LOVE YOU. I am sorry I disappointed you and made you unhappy on your birthday. I am very very sorry. I wish you can nag at me right now telling me how 不乖 i am, how immature i am. I miss you alot and still i m sorry.
HAPPY THANKS,GIVING- TO SLEEP
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Don't Remind Me
This blog is about my feelings atm that is sufficiently momentarily and temporary.
Peanut butter here tastes bad. I like chunky ones, but the ones here arent as good as the american brand that we've got at home. Having breakfast is always a hassle to me. Cooking is also a hassle cuz I am just cooking for myself or less. Buy alot of food but end up in the bin. WTH is this? when did i become such a ignorant fool?
there are alot of thoughts just emerges and submerges in my head at the same time. This is the real annoying part. I thought things are settled when its "OUT" of the mind. But NO, its not really gone. AIYAAAA wat to do ?
I still think we are still growing up. we are still incapable to bare responsibilty, barely experienced, barely know whats ahead of us. I dont like it, and dont want it, dont even like to try to force myself to like it which in the end, makes me miserable for the timebeing. Wat da heck right ?
Its been really tiring lately. School wise and emotional wise. Its always up and down, round and round. So annoyed, annoyed and more annoyed when things cant turn out the way we want to. I know its great when things work out, but then, total dislike when what i do gives out the wrong impression, or what i try to do just like to be considerate and caring and/ or get denied with some irrational reasons.
This sounds just sooo emo to da max. So what if its like this. Do i always have to show that i m okay by sucking up to all these sH*T? I want to have my life too you know, whoever that is reading this. I am not here to suck up someone and some other's matter and be responsible for your feelings, take care of all this stupid things...and SMILE to pretend I M OK AT FAKING MYSELF. URGH.... i wanna throw myself out of the window right now.
I am just Letting it out.
examine this picture here. See the women's eyes, all you see is frustration and sadness, but there's nowhere for her to escape. She's gotta keep rowing the boat across the river.
I know, Life is hard, but you gotta move on.
.
NO mood. P.S. This post refers to my temporary feelings ONLY.
Peanut butter here tastes bad. I like chunky ones, but the ones here arent as good as the american brand that we've got at home. Having breakfast is always a hassle to me. Cooking is also a hassle cuz I am just cooking for myself or less. Buy alot of food but end up in the bin. WTH is this? when did i become such a ignorant fool?
there are alot of thoughts just emerges and submerges in my head at the same time. This is the real annoying part. I thought things are settled when its "OUT" of the mind. But NO, its not really gone. AIYAAAA wat to do ?
I still think we are still growing up. we are still incapable to bare responsibilty, barely experienced, barely know whats ahead of us. I dont like it, and dont want it, dont even like to try to force myself to like it which in the end, makes me miserable for the timebeing. Wat da heck right ?
Its been really tiring lately. School wise and emotional wise. Its always up and down, round and round. So annoyed, annoyed and more annoyed when things cant turn out the way we want to. I know its great when things work out, but then, total dislike when what i do gives out the wrong impression, or what i try to do just like to be considerate and caring and/ or get denied with some irrational reasons.
This sounds just sooo emo to da max. So what if its like this. Do i always have to show that i m okay by sucking up to all these sH*T? I want to have my life too you know, whoever that is reading this. I am not here to suck up someone and some other's matter and be responsible for your feelings, take care of all this stupid things...and SMILE to pretend I M OK AT FAKING MYSELF. URGH.... i wanna throw myself out of the window right now.
I am just Letting it out.
examine this picture here. See the women's eyes, all you see is frustration and sadness, but there's nowhere for her to escape. She's gotta keep rowing the boat across the river.
I know, Life is hard, but you gotta move on.
.
NO mood. P.S. This post refers to my temporary feelings ONLY.
Monday, September 6, 2010
End of Summer 2010
夏日的尾端
Its RAINING right now in Vancouver. Not too good as we'll have to bear with it for next 6 months. But we have to keep it moving. Summer's ending. NOOOOOOOO !
Just moved into my new dorm, 12th floor, facing the mountains and ocean. Got a best best view out of all Vancouver. I see boats, waves, blue ocean, trees, the ski resort at the tip of moutain, best of all, other ppl changing and plane crashing into mountains. Hahaha, just kidding.
Got 5 other roomates, they seems pretty nice, I might be wrong with one of them, who knows.
Writting this blog allows me to procrasinate for unpacking. I honestly didnt know i have SOO MUCH "JUNK", i have way too much clothes. I wouldnt want to be a girl when it comes to packing and unpacking. Counting out the amount of me actually packing/unpacking and moving from place to place, its concluded that I have been doing this for about 7 times now in the time span of 6 years. Its pretty amazing, and bad as well. So excuse my room for being so messy right now.
感恩词：
There is this somebody out there that I really want to thank alot deep down from my heart. There's a ton of apologise to be done, for flipping his life upside down all the time, and yes, this person does deserve alot more which I will have to make up for it. I am so grateful to have this special person, to always listen to me and making me always smile with happiness,and sometimes misery. Hahaha. THANK YOU man. I am always wishing the best for you. Take good care and do not worry. I'll try my best I promise, I promised not to dissapoint you and I know my responsibility to take care the rest. HEARTS from the far away.
Ahh, schools starting. Gotta focus focus focus. Goal setting time !
ok, dont feel like saying anything else. So, thanks for reading.
Go back to study, get ready for the FALL. If bored, some pics below from summer - singapore, malaysia, vancouver-victoria.
Jing Hui 谢竞慧 上
Its RAINING right now in Vancouver. Not too good as we'll have to bear with it for next 6 months. But we have to keep it moving. Summer's ending. NOOOOOOOO !
Just moved into my new dorm, 12th floor, facing the mountains and ocean. Got a best best view out of all Vancouver. I see boats, waves, blue ocean, trees, the ski resort at the tip of moutain, best of all, other ppl changing and plane crashing into mountains. Hahaha, just kidding.
Got 5 other roomates, they seems pretty nice, I might be wrong with one of them, who knows.
Writting this blog allows me to procrasinate for unpacking. I honestly didnt know i have SOO MUCH "JUNK", i have way too much clothes. I wouldnt want to be a girl when it comes to packing and unpacking. Counting out the amount of me actually packing/unpacking and moving from place to place, its concluded that I have been doing this for about 7 times now in the time span of 6 years. Its pretty amazing, and bad as well. So excuse my room for being so messy right now.
感恩词：
There is this somebody out there that I really want to thank alot deep down from my heart. There's a ton of apologise to be done, for flipping his life upside down all the time, and yes, this person does deserve alot more which I will have to make up for it. I am so grateful to have this special person, to always listen to me and making me always smile with happiness,and sometimes misery. Hahaha. THANK YOU man. I am always wishing the best for you. Take good care and do not worry. I'll try my best I promise, I promised not to dissapoint you and I know my responsibility to take care the rest. HEARTS from the far away.
Ahh, schools starting. Gotta focus focus focus. Goal setting time !
ok, dont feel like saying anything else. So, thanks for reading.
Go back to study, get ready for the FALL. If bored, some pics below from summer - singapore, malaysia, vancouver-victoria.
Jing Hui 谢竞慧 上
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Malaysia Beaches is THE BEST
Last week, went to Kuantan, Kuala Terrenganu, and Pulau Redang.
At Pulau Redang:
Besides the accomodation at Redang Bay (which i reckon NEVER EVER go)... It's a beautiful place to visit.
Great beaches, great sea, great fishes, great corals, great beach disco (at each resort) <3 nothing, absolutely NOTHING beats the beach life there
Everyday, snorkel every 9.30am and 2.30pm and continue snorkel or sun tan late noon. Disco at night. U'll be amazed by the friendly staff i.e. scuba divers / snorkerers / guides / ppl who worked there are damn good at dancing. I mean they literally can move their butts and shake it off... way better than city boys :p then, BLUE SAND, AND not to miss out, FIFA WORLD CUP.
We did some daring stuff: Jumping off the boat into the sea (which prob amazed lots of the tourist and guides, which makes us noticeable), met couple of cool people and became friends with them which made it a total cool experience.
Btw, Girls, all the 'local' have really really good body. Super buffed up, muscular, fine rediated over brown skin that can resist the sun so well, wahh, if u ever see them walk up on a street in city, u'll definately say they are hot ! HOT man HOT ! hahaha
Kuantan:
Meet up with Sue Ann, my middle school buddy, she's so awesome !! I love spending time with her and the night staying overnight at her place :p Swimming at Royal Club of Pahang, eating keropok at Taman Gelora, sleeping over ... and catching up with her !! I love her lots !!
And stayed with a family friend, the Tan family. All we have done is laying on the floor forever and ever cuz the floor was nice. And EAT. Sleep, jalan jalan pergi makan.
Kuala Terrenganu :
Beautiful beaches beautiful beautiful !!! so many places to go.
Conclusion:
Really demotivates me to go back to Vancouver. Nothing is better than Malaysia ! I love it here so so so much !! AHH, really dont want to go back !!
well. next blog i'll make a complete update
At Pulau Redang:
Besides the accomodation at Redang Bay (which i reckon NEVER EVER go)... It's a beautiful place to visit.
Great beaches, great sea, great fishes, great corals, great beach disco (at each resort) <3 nothing, absolutely NOTHING beats the beach life there
Everyday, snorkel every 9.30am and 2.30pm and continue snorkel or sun tan late noon. Disco at night. U'll be amazed by the friendly staff i.e. scuba divers / snorkerers / guides / ppl who worked there are damn good at dancing. I mean they literally can move their butts and shake it off... way better than city boys :p then, BLUE SAND, AND not to miss out, FIFA WORLD CUP.
We did some daring stuff: Jumping off the boat into the sea (which prob amazed lots of the tourist and guides, which makes us noticeable), met couple of cool people and became friends with them which made it a total cool experience.
Btw, Girls, all the 'local' have really really good body. Super buffed up, muscular, fine rediated over brown skin that can resist the sun so well, wahh, if u ever see them walk up on a street in city, u'll definately say they are hot ! HOT man HOT ! hahaha
Kuantan:
Meet up with Sue Ann, my middle school buddy, she's so awesome !! I love spending time with her and the night staying overnight at her place :p Swimming at Royal Club of Pahang, eating keropok at Taman Gelora, sleeping over ... and catching up with her !! I love her lots !!
And stayed with a family friend, the Tan family. All we have done is laying on the floor forever and ever cuz the floor was nice. And EAT. Sleep, jalan jalan pergi makan.
Kuala Terrenganu :
Beautiful beaches beautiful beautiful !!! so many places to go.
Conclusion:
Really demotivates me to go back to Vancouver. Nothing is better than Malaysia ! I love it here so so so much !! AHH, really dont want to go back !!
well. next blog i'll make a complete update
Thursday, May 27, 2010
”你是我最重要的人“
好漫长。。。暑假的时间真的过的好漫长
开始看‘就想賴著妳’，很不错啊，很多东西看，戏又不太拖。觉得很浪费时间，我是可以做工的，没有要去找，很懒。
不行， 不能懒了，绝对不行了！！！
这段时间，
仔细想了很多，很多。
接受了他，对我很好，太好，人品很好。。。也发现自己许多的短处，却完完全全不了解自己为什么可以给人快乐。
虽然在别人眼中，好像很好个性，没有问题，那种被人看见的完美，真的摸样，
但要配的起别人的眼光，不止烦，也累。
为什么，做好人永远是让人受伤或被受伤害的？我还是不明白。
没经验，没知识，我可不像别的女生。我比不起她们-身材，样貌，语言，幽默，气质。这些我通通都没有。
人总会从经验学习，然后有了机会，就会有目标和期望。
而我，不知道我可以达到他的期望吗，我不知道我可以给他什么快乐，真正完美的幸福。真的，我很害怕。怕不配，怕信不过，最怕自己，怕不能相信自己的去相信他。
记住，别轻易的对任何人说“你是我最重要的人”。
这句“你是我最重要的人”，
如果对方真的明白说出这句话的理由和真诚，此句，可以打动全世界人的心，让人完全相信爱，一切完美。
但对每个人都说过一模一样的‘名句’，这会让人很难相信你的真心真意，反而会让人不敢相信你，甚至可以伤感情。
“你是我最重要的人”
不是不能说，但该这一句应该留给你生命很重要很重要的人，像你最珍惜的父母，亲人，朋友，真心爱的人。只有他们才是最有资格接受你的真心。
所以说，
不是每个人可以随意接受这句话，也不可以喜欢很爽快的随地跟人说“你是我最重要的人”。要记住哦！
说了一大堆，也只不过想更了解什么是爱情，人对人之间感情。
明天下雨，天晴后，
努力做自己，为自己的世界染上美丽的景色。
开始看‘就想賴著妳’，很不错啊，很多东西看，戏又不太拖。觉得很浪费时间，我是可以做工的，没有要去找，很懒。
不行， 不能懒了，绝对不行了！！！
这段时间，
仔细想了很多，很多。
接受了他，对我很好，太好，人品很好。。。也发现自己许多的短处，却完完全全不了解自己为什么可以给人快乐。
虽然在别人眼中，好像很好个性，没有问题，那种被人看见的完美，真的摸样，
但要配的起别人的眼光，不止烦，也累。
为什么，做好人永远是让人受伤或被受伤害的？我还是不明白。
没经验，没知识，我可不像别的女生。我比不起她们-身材，样貌，语言，幽默，气质。这些我通通都没有。
人总会从经验学习，然后有了机会，就会有目标和期望。
而我，不知道我可以达到他的期望吗，我不知道我可以给他什么快乐，真正完美的幸福。真的，我很害怕。怕不配，怕信不过，最怕自己，怕不能相信自己的去相信他。
记住，别轻易的对任何人说“你是我最重要的人”。
这句“你是我最重要的人”，
如果对方真的明白说出这句话的理由和真诚，此句，可以打动全世界人的心，让人完全相信爱，一切完美。
但对每个人都说过一模一样的‘名句’，这会让人很难相信你的真心真意，反而会让人不敢相信你，甚至可以伤感情。
“你是我最重要的人”
不是不能说，但该这一句应该留给你生命很重要很重要的人，像你最珍惜的父母，亲人，朋友，真心爱的人。只有他们才是最有资格接受你的真心。
所以说，
不是每个人可以随意接受这句话，也不可以喜欢很爽快的随地跟人说“你是我最重要的人”。要记住哦！
说了一大堆，也只不过想更了解什么是爱情，人对人之间感情。
明天下雨，天晴后，
努力做自己，为自己的世界染上美丽的景色。
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Summer 2010
Summer. 夏天
My favorite season. Thats when ice cream and flip-flops dominates the world.
Summer is all year long in Singapore. But the weather is HOT !!
Vancouver summer is pretty with lots of colourful tulips, yellow and white daisy. I miss the colour spectrum across the green.
This year summer is going to be different. Very exciting ! Lots of opportunity for me to pursue my dream !!
Spend time to relax, and reflect. Think about yourself and room for improvements :)
People, look forward to FIFA South Africa 2010, Toy Story 3 and much more !!!
Hope there is no more natural disasters.
GOOD LUCK,
ENJOY
Jing Hui
My favorite season. Thats when ice cream and flip-flops dominates the world.
Summer is all year long in Singapore. But the weather is HOT !!
Vancouver summer is pretty with lots of colourful tulips, yellow and white daisy. I miss the colour spectrum across the green.
This year summer is going to be different. Very exciting ! Lots of opportunity for me to pursue my dream !!
Spend time to relax, and reflect. Think about yourself and room for improvements :)
People, look forward to FIFA South Africa 2010, Toy Story 3 and much more !!!
Hope there is no more natural disasters.
GOOD LUCK,
ENJOY
Jing Hui
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