Don't Remind Me

This blog is about my feelings atm that is sufficiently momentarily and temporary.

Peanut butter here tastes bad. I like chunky ones, but the ones here arent as good as the american brand that we've got at home. Having breakfast is always a hassle to me. Cooking is also a hassle cuz I am just cooking for myself or less. Buy alot of food but end up in the bin. WTH is this? when did i become such a ignorant fool?

there are alot of thoughts just emerges and submerges in my head at the same time. This is the real annoying part. I thought things are settled when its "OUT" of the mind. But NO, its not really gone. AIYAAAA wat to do ?

I still think we are still growing up. we are still incapable to bare responsibilty, barely experienced, barely know whats ahead of us. I dont like it, and dont want it, dont even like to try to force myself to like it which in the end, makes me miserable for the timebeing. Wat da heck right ?
Its been really tiring lately. School wise and emotional wise. Its always up and down, round and round. So annoyed, annoyed and more annoyed when things cant turn out the way we want to. I know its great when things work out, but then, total dislike when what i do gives out the wrong impression, or what i try to do just like to be considerate and caring and/ or get denied with some irrational reasons.

This sounds just sooo emo to da max. So what if its like this. Do i always have to show that i m okay by sucking up to all these sH*T? I want to have my life too you know, whoever that is reading this. I am not here to suck up someone and some other's matter and be responsible for your feelings, take care of all this stupid things...and SMILE to pretend I M OK AT FAKING MYSELF. URGH.... i wanna throw myself out of the window right now.

I am just Letting it out.

examine this picture here. See the women's eyes, all you see is frustration and sadness, but there's nowhere for her to escape. She's gotta keep rowing the boat across the river.

I know, Life is hard, but you gotta move on.
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NO mood. P.S. This post refers to my temporary feelings ONLY.